New
Unblemished
Wide eyed innocence.


I love
I offer my heart
My soul
My All
I am broken.

I choose
A life of pain
A punishment
For believing I am worthy.
I am unloved.

I am
Beaten down
Shattered
Like glass.
I am broken.

I am used.
I am abused.
I cannot find the light
Inside myself
I am lost.

I bring new life
Into the world
Not one
But two
I am responsible.

I must choose
Better
I must choose
Right
I am a mother.

I find
A spark of light
Inside myself
and stand.
I am courageous.

I cry a lot
I doubt myself
I am afraid
and yet I try
I am tenacious.

I find a hope
Inside myself
For something more
A new beginning.
I am healing.

I take a journey
I learn
I grow
I understand
I am a woman.

I lay the past
To rest
and walk toward
A future
I am faith.

I hope and dream
I wait and wait
and want
and I believe
I am ready.

I meet a man
Who fills my soul
My heart
With faith and trust
I am loved.

He retrieves the pieces
of my broken heart
and fits them
back together
I am mended.

A new joy begins
Making family complete
But instead
A loss so deep
I am sorrow.

And once more
Inside myself
No hope no reason
No desire
I am lost.

Somehow again
I face forward
I start anew
I have purpose again
I am mom.

Slowly they begin
To drift into
Lives of independence
and my purpose becomes hazy
I am confused.

Now deeper
Than ever before
I am sinking into
Despair.
I am the deep BLUE funk.


I need something more
I need a purpose
I wallow in
Self-pity
I am aware.

Then by fate
Or destiny
I find another piece of myself
A joy, a shining light
I am awake.

I must find
Another purpose
I must find a new reason
Stay up and stay awake
I am rising.

I hunt
for what I do not know
And then I find
The center of myself.
I am found.

Then I learn
That I am more
Than I ever knew I was
To many and in truth
I am beauty.

In learning Who I am
I have also come to understand
I deserve everything
I am worthy and
I am LOVE.

I need not be ashamed
Of who I am
Or apologize
For what I believe.
I am a queen.

©2009 KD Bissonette

If you are interested in seeing the lyrics for any of the songs we have already written or are currently writing for our band, "Rusted Halo" click the link to our website below:

Rusted Halo

I'm feeling lost and sad
Down on myself
Adrift in a sea
Of confusion
I need a wee boost
Of self-esteem
To break me of my delusion

I expressed a wee pain
You answered my need
With a great deal
Of patience and sweetness
It gave me the boost
I needed to heal
A tiny moment of weakness

     Don't let anyone
     Break you down
     Stand for who you are
     If you can't
     I'll beat them down
     I got your back forever.

Your generous spirit
Has touched my heart
Your sense of humour
Delights me
The sound of your laughter
Brightens my life
And your Irish temper incites me!

Your fiesty and Irish
Passionate temper
Won't back down
Until you're DONE!
I'm ALWAYS on your side
Except when we
Fight for fun!

     Don't let anyone
     Break you down
     Stand for who you are
     If you can't
     I'll beat them down
     I got your back forever.

With the same fire and passion
You'll fight to defend
The family and friends
You respect
With a heart like a pitbull
And strength of spirit
Your people you will protect.

I'm glad you're my little pitbull
That you'll fight
To defend me
Is SWEET!
I take my family
Where I find it
And now you've made it complete!

     Don't let anyone
     Break you down
     Stand for who you are
     If you can't
     I'll beat them down
     I got your back forever.

(A song/poem for my little WIP)

©2007 KD Bissonette

I watch you while you lay asleep
And my heart opens up to you...
Full of hopes and dreams,
I could hope to see you,
climbing mountains,
fording rivers,
crossing oceans,
building skyscrapers,
performing operations,
defending cases,
flying skies.
Any number of lofty plans or high ideals
Could be my dream for you...
Instead...
My eyes see,
A sweet heart just growing sweeter
And warm gentle arms holding love close.
Sharing a deep laugh with a soft giggle
and the smell of newly born hope
In my arms. JOY!

©2002 KD Bissonette

You may not have held them,

From the moment of their birth, but,
You've been a strong figure
And helped them know mirth. You may not
Have been there to wipe every tear,

When they were beginning to learn about fear.
But, you are here now to guide them along
Maybe it's you who will help them be strong
You've already helped them learn about life
To laugh a little more,

And deal better with strife.

It's a long journey from child to adult, but, 

A father who loves you, helps you right out.
The greatest thing my father ever gave me
Was the strength to continue, amid adversity.
I'm proud to have you by my side all the way
And they will be too,
Though they may never say.

©2002 KD Bissonette

For Andrew Jordan Bissonette-December 1, 2000

I was waiting to see you,
To hear your heart beat,
To feel your life inside mine.
It wasn't to be.

Instead, I held your lifeless body
In the palm of my hand and wondered,
Where is your soul?
It wasn't to be.

Still... I ache to hold you,
Kiss you, smell you, wipe your tears.
My soul will always long for yours...
It wasn't to be.

To mark your place I light a candle,
And remember by reading you a story.
Even though I know, my heart...
It wasn't to be.

©2002 KD Bissonette

You are my heart.

 

I place my heart

in your hands

and I tremble with joy

because I know

they are gentle.

 

I place my hand

in yours

and I quiver in anticipation

because of your

soft caress.

 

I place my lips

to yours

and I become weak in the knees

at the fire

you ignite.

 

I hold your heart

in my hands

and I shiver with ecstacy

because I belong to

your passion.

 

I place my heart

in your hands

and my tears flow freely

because I know

I am home.

©2002 KD Bissonette

(What I wanted to say the day we got married-

April 18, 1998-but, was too emotional then to say.)

I have a new heart

It opened

The moment you smiled.

 

I'll give it to you

Without a thought

Because you smiled.

 

Maybe this time

It will be right.

Maybe I can smile too.

©1996 KD Bissonette

A taste of you

Is such

Sweetness.

 

It has left me

With an open

Heart.

 

I'm going to love you

There are no strings

I expect no promise.

 

Just a chance

To love you

Without limits.

©1995 KD Bissonette